You may be asking, what about that girl, sister’s friend, father’s friend’s daughter? Well, let’s call her Q. Oddly enough, I haven’t seen her in my life before that day when we met, although I was aware of her existence and so did she, we just did not meet before on any event or at each other’s home. Things like that happen. I know my father knows his friend and his family but they live in a long distance from our home and I am in a different country, like 80% of the year. So…yeah…we saw each other for the first time in the university where my sister studies.
I am pretty easy going and I like other people, especially girls, and I do become friends nearly with everyone, but it is not easy to make to to fall in love with any girl that wants that. I am very particular with what kind of girls I like. Well. Z (girl from my school, see previous post) was (is) like that.
Now the crazy part, over time, I started to like Q, this new girl, more and more. I mean, there are many good girls that I just like, as a person but, not in a romantic way. This girl, however, was also like that to me, until I started really liking her. I could not get enough of her, and I was chatting with her more and more until very sad thing happened – I found out that she has a boyfriend. Well, usually, you can tell this from a girl in few hours of chat, maybe without asking directly (which I’ve done, non-direct “do you have boyfriend” question).
But I was very convinced she did not have, although she does look gorgeous, it was unlikely nobody noticed her. Although, still I told her that I like her, she responded that she just wants to be friends with me, nothing more. I was friendzoned. Yep, feels awful. And it hurts now taking to her, but I do that nonetheless, because it also makes me happy to talk to a girl, other than a relative girl. Nearly a month passed after not talking to the other girl, from school. And she made me really sad, I really did not want us to be like this, I wanted to slowly progress our relationship, not rush not make any serious decisions, but she does not want that I guess. I am still waiting to see what she will reply, if she ever decides to do. Feels really weird not to talk to her for so long.
And now I am in a very shitty position.
On the one side – a girl (Z) whom I like and who liked me, fell in love with and wanted all good for us, but now is not responding me, on the other side – girl (Q) who does not like me in THAT way, whom I like too, but who also has a boyfriend, so that I cannot do anything about.
The only possible outcome here is if Z explains me her behaviour and we get together again, in very unlikely situation. The “bad” outcome or very selfish and cruel possible outcome is that Q girl breaks with her boyfriend and gives me a chance to be her, but that contradicts with her “I want to be only friends with you” statement. So, unlikely as well.
That’s the NOW for me. And what’s next? We’ll see.
-M